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b i o ~

2005-07-27T15:09:00.000-07:00

世界上，每１秒有３名小孩因貧窮飢餓而死去。
卻有小孩／大人每日浪費n頓食物。
有國家政府花費過億兆在軍火／防衛。

世界上，有小孩帶著絕症／缺欠來面對人生，
有努力地對抗呼吸困難，心跳問題，皮膚／腦部發炎的。
卻有時間表排滿了的墮胎所。

世界上，有老公老婆想生小孩卻不孕，小產。
卻有因「意外」而懷孕，因害怕而逃跑，因「沒辦法」而作了個選擇。
但也有人勞力的面對，單身媽媽／單身爸爸帶著小孩。

是意外？是人為？是真的沒辦法嗎？
有的不就是選擇嗎？
可能我真的不懂。

對我來說，「生命」, life, 是最美妙的。
不論人類，動物，昆蟲，爬蟲，微生物，花果樹木，蔬菜，深海中的未知生物，世界都充滿著生命。

請珍惜。

可能是我這個self-righteous vegetarian/vegan在說瘋話。
是否人類太聰明呢？是否人類太多選擇呢？
聰明是否就能濫用權威呢？

。。。不去想了。
我就是一個 contemplated self-righteous life lover.
I am pro-choice, b e c a u s e I am pro-life.
I choose my vegetarian lifestyle, because I am pro-life.

There, I have finished bitching and ranting.
*sigh*

意義

2005-06-06T13:57:00.000-07:00

人生是過客
作詞者：星雲大師

宇宙是人生的逆旅人生是宇宙的過客
過客的人生匆匆的來匆匆的去
在過客的人生裡掌握時間擁有人生
善用時間把握人生真正認識生命
了悟人生苦多

我們要為宇宙留下彩色我們要把世界繪成天堂
我們要為宇宙留下彩色我們要把世界繪成天堂
宇宙是人生的逆旅人生是宇宙的過客
過客的人生匆匆的來匆匆的去
在過客的人生裡找尋生命的泉源
開發內心的能源自我主宰生命
不懼人生苦空

我們要為世間留下情義我們要把人間點亮光輝
我們要為世間留下情義我們要把人間點亮光輝
在過客的人生裡掌握時間擁有人生
善用時間把握人生真正認識生命
了悟人生苦多

我們要為宇宙留下彩色我們要把世界繪成天堂
我們要為世間留下情義我們要把人間點亮光輝
我們要為宇宙留下彩色我們要把世界繪成天堂
我們要為世間留下情義我們要把人間點亮光輝

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人生的意義是什麼？

對我來說可能是給身邊的人一些他們需要的「改變」／「驚喜」﹣花園裡的一朵花，一隻過路的蝴蝶，又或許一棵星星，一陣細雨，一絲暖暖的陽光，，，，
有時，最微不足道的東西／事情，就是令人有最大改變，或改變了也不自覺的。
「改變」永遠是過去式。總是「改變了」才發現有所改變。「在改變」的期間卻永遠總是不知不覺。

seeing....

2005-06-01T00:29:00.000-07:00

... The eye does not see things but images of things that mean other things ... who knows what? ... signals warn of what is forbidden in a given place ... and what is allowed.

Your gaze scans the streets as if they were written pages: the city says everything you must think, makes you repeat her discourse, and while you believe you are visiting Tamata (city name) you are only recording the names with which she defines herself and all her parts.

However the city may really be, beneath this thick coating of signs, whatever it may contain or conceal, you leave Tamara without having discovered it. ... In the shape that chance and wind give the clouds, you are already intent on recognizing figures...

Calvino, Italo. Invisible Cities (trans. Weaver W.). NY & London: Harcourt Brace Jovanovich, 1972. (pp. 13-14.)

Fresh Blue Sky ~ Fresh Laundry ~ ReFreshing Day

2005-05-25T18:59:00.000-07:00

最近兩晚都發惡夢。

前晚＞老師叫我誏讀某篇日文。一行字中有好幾個發音是猜出來的，結果被老師嘲笑，害得我哭著醒過來。
﹣起床後回想夢中的心情，原來自己最怕的不是失去或別離，是被人侮辱而乃至失去信心和自尊。

昨晚＞夢到和一位男同學（現實生活中並無此人）一起上學，途中他碰到同學在路邊聊天，我決定走先一步，但居然過馬路時被車撞倒，暈倒在地上。那個相識的男同學居然，「哇，唔係啊話～」然後和他的同學往學校的反方向逃跑。
﹣天啊，有這樣的同學／朋友，死了也算。傷心過度從夢中醒了過來。

平日隨了白日夢之外不會多作其他夢的我居然連續發兩晚惡夢實在有點怪。
對上一次一兩星期前發了另一個夢。對我來說不是惡夢，但對我朋友來說是個惡夢。
夢＞在一間無傢具或裝飾的房子裡突然有個念頭想跳樓。想把窗打開之際發現全部上了鎖。一氣之下結果拋棄了念頭醒過來了。

連續兩三星期的陰天後，今日是第一日清天白雲。
我從來不喜歡用乾衣機乾衣服，因為實在太愛在太陽下曬乾。
結果今日開了４次洗衣機，把衣服，床單，blanket etc., 通通洗過後曬乾！心情極皆！
I absolutely love air dried fresh laundry~~~

feelin' good : )

Trois Couleurs - Bleu

2005-05-23T01:56:00.000-07:00

As my friend was flipping channels, I suddenly stopped my friend when I saw Juliette Binoche, and within 5 seconds, I realised KK's Bleu is on air. *gasp*gasp*gasp*gasp*gasp* Not surprising at all, I was glued to the screen although I own a copy of the movie.

I don't remember how many times I have watched Trois Couleurs; I've watched it at least 2~3 times a year since 1995. One of those times, I was so absorbed by Bleu that I watched it twice in a role at night. I never get tired of KK's film.

Once again, I am suffering the aftermath of the film.
My afterthoughts this time is - - - qu'est-ce que l'amour? (what is love?)
- love is not confined by time, space; cannnot be defined by expression; cannot be expressed; cannot be spoken
- love is Desire; love is infinite

***** Song of the Unification of Europe*****music: Zbigniew Preisner
Though I speak with the tongues of angels,
If I have not love...
My words would resound with but a tinkling of a cymbal.

And though I have the gift of prophecy...
And understand all mysteries...
and all knowledge...
And though I have all faith
So that I could remove mountains,
if I have not love...
I am nothing.

Love is patient, full of goodness;
Love tolerates all things,
Aspires to all things,
Love never dies,
while the prophecies shall be done away,
tongues shall be silenced,
knowledge shall fade...
thus then shall linger only
faith, hope, and love...
but greatest of these...
is love.

communication and understanding

2005-05-07T18:43:00.000-07:00

「不用怕我們會帶你找媽媽」消防安慰受驚小黃牛
5月 6日星期五 05:05

【明報專訊】「不用怕！我們會帶你找媽媽！」一頭3呎長的小黃牛，昨清晨6時30分，被晨運客發現被困在荃灣油柑頭山對上一條2米深的引水道內，疑失足墮下無法爬出，不斷哀鳴，晨運客見狀報警，多名消防員接報到場，其中3人跳下引水道拯救小牛。消防先欲以繩索將小牛綑綁，但小牛不斷掙扎，其後消防員用紅色毛氈蓋住其雙眼，再以繩索綁住其身體，在引水道上下共5名消防員合力把小牛拉上引水道路面。正當各人為小牛「鬆綁」時，牠突然發難，其中一名消防員即溫柔地輕撫其頭部，並說道：「不用怕！我們會帶你找媽媽！」小黃牛似聽懂了一般，隨即十分「合作」由消防員鬆綁解困。消防員檢查後發現小黃牛並無受傷，即將牠放回大自然。

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(comment will soon follow)

鬆三口氣 + 吸兩口陽光

2005-04-26T20:24:00.000-07:00

第一口：中日和好
雖然中日握手和好，但問題真的就這樣解決了嗎？這次的繃帶有效期到何時何月？

第二口：Seminar paper completed!
連續幾個星期不斷趕文章，再加上其他工作，何止空閒，連睡眠時間也被侵蝕。一天隨了坐，食和睡之外也無他了。完了一篇，又開第二篇（要努力，要努力）。

第三口：一個學期的結束
一晚連改100多份卷，翌天腦部痴呆。

第四口：天氣好轉，外出運動也！
從腦部痴呆的那天起開始練跑步，不到４天回復 6x400m！今年目標 12x400m。

第五口：Kamikaze, Cherry Blossoms, and Nationalisms
開始閱讀"Kamikaze, Cherry Blossoms, and Nationalisms"。雖然進度較慢，會嘗試再Blog寫一下summary，（不過會用英文寫）。

...腦部痴呆中，寫不出什麼好東西。對不起。
趕著seminar paper 時滿腦子題材，現在卻什麼也寫不出...

CH-JP relations

2005-04-17T04:22:00.000-07:00

wishing this outrage will stop... it can only get worse as we all know...

endless ...

2005-04-16T23:16:00.000-07:00

Endless Road - by: Lin Jun Jie- 距離（國語版）

the truth is tearing up my heart
I can't recognize this place
the endless road without a stop sign
can't even find a stranger this time

why am I still holding back my tears
in this loneliness there's nothing to fear
every chord still seems a wonder
how we could be together
every time I ask if this
would be the last

why am I still talking to myself
hoping you will have the keys to my cell
every song might calm the weather
but it just draws me deeper
how do I get out of this I think
I never will

a crystal forming in the eye
maybe this would be the last
the winding path down my face
till I begin to taste the bitterness inside

*****comment*****
so in love with this song, both in mandarin and in english ♡
(right now, i'm inclined to read this song as "endless road (to finish my paper)" ;_; )

*the truth (ideology) is tearing up my heart, i can't recognise this place, the endless road without a stop sign, can't even find a stranger this time. ... everytime i ask if this paper will be the last ... why am i still talking to myself, hoping you (truth) will have the keys to my cell, every "truth" might calm the weather, but it just draws me deeper, how do i get out of this, i think i never will, a crystal forming in the eye, maybe this would be the last, the winding path down my face, till i begin to taste the bitterness inside....*

前日聽了一句inspiring/motivating的句子，「讀哲學就是為了不用讀哲學」
（我什麼時候可以畢業呢？如何知道自己已經畢業呢？ - - - 路還很遠，繼續努力罷）

現代沙士比亞式悲劇

2005-04-13T00:05:00.000-07:00

「橋邊有冇石壆�？我想落車睇�風景！」

楊哀聲要求吳：「唔該同我老婆講聲：『對唔住』！」吳以為楊是欠債，救人心切，竟然膽粗粗說：「我可以賣埋架車同你還債呀！」楊淡然回應：「你幫我唔到，我有癌症冇得醫！」吳只好改口：「依家科學咁先進點會冇得醫呢？」但楊不為所動，深深吸一口氣已縱身躍下海中。水警輪趕至在附近海面搜索，由於海面漆黑一片，警員經十多分鐘搜索，始將他救起，由於青馬橋高約六十二公尺，墮下產生衝擊力甚大，楊頭頂嚴重受傷，送往荃灣公眾碼頭再由救護車送院，惜延至六時十六分證實不治。警方根據字條上的電話通知楊妻趕往醫院，惜已無法見丈夫最後一面，她向警方表示，丈夫患有癌症，懷疑他因病厭世。

死者楊炳沃（五十一歲），妻子姓梁（五十歲），居住半山列堤頓道。
「我好愛你，太太」

青馬大橋九七年五月通車，至昨日為止，已先後發生六宗跳橋自殺案件。

修改自：癡漢魂斷青馬橋（4月 14日星期四）【東方日報專訊】

＊＊＊感/想＊＊＊
是因為愛生命的美好一面, 愛自己，選擇了在一切要被毀滅之前去毀滅一切。
但他真的愛他的妻子嗎？

他對她的愛和她對他的愛
・・・・・或・・・・・
他對他的愛和他對他的愛
・・・・・或・・・・・
她對她的愛和她對她的愛
・・・・・之間・・・・・
兩者的接合點有時總難免有差距

（到底這裡的"space/indent"是點打的呢...?)

幢景

2005-04-12T15:35:00.000-07:00

♪　All the leaves are brown
And the sky is grey
I went for a walk
On a winter's day
I'd be safe and warm
If I was in L.A.
California dreamin'
On such a winter's day ♪

陣陣細雨，我開始幻想加州個邊係唔係好好陽光。其實個日班機cancel都係一件好事。去唔到，幢景的加州更美。過了一座山，令一邊味又係o甘...

If the world were a village of 100 people

2005-04-11T04:53:00.000-07:00

In the world today, 6 biliion 300 million people live.
If this world were shrunk to the size of a village,
what would it look like?
If 100 people lived in this village,

52 would be women, 48 would be men
30 would be children, 70 would be adults.
7 would be aged.
90 would be heterosexual, 10 would be homosexual
70 would be nonwhite, 30 would be white
61 would be Asian, 13 African, 13 from North and South America, 12 Europeans, and the remaining one from the South Pacific.
33 would be Christians, 19 believers in Islam, 13 would be Hindus, and 6 would follow Buddhist teachings. 5 would believe that there are spirits in the trees and rocks and in all of nature. 24 would be believe in other religions, or would believe in no religion.
17 would speak Chinese, 9 English, 8 Hindi and Urdu, 6 Spanish, 6 Russian, and 4 would speak Arabic. That would account for half the village. The other half would speak Bengal, Portuguese, Indonesian, Japanese, German, French, or some other language.
In such a village with so many sorts of folks, it would be very important to learn to understand people different from yourself and to accept others as they are. But consider this. Of the 100 people in this village,

20 are underonurished, 1 is dying of starvation, while 15 are overweight.
Of the wealth in this village, 6 people own 59% (all of them from the United States), 74 people own 39%, and 20 people share the remaining 2%.
Of the energy of this village, 20 people consume 80%, and 80 people share the remaining 20%.
75 people have some supply of food and a place to shelter them from the wind and the rain, but 25 do not. 17 have no clean, safe water to drink.
If you have money in the bank, money in your wallet and spare change somewhere around the house, then you are among the richest 8.
If you have a car, you are among the richest 7.
Among the villages, 1 has a college education. 2 have computers. 14 cannot read.
If you can speak and act according to your faith and your conscience without harassment, imprisonment, torture or death, then you are more fortunate than 48, who can not.
If you do not live in fear of death by bombardment, armed attack, landmines, or of rape or kidnapping by armed groups, then you are more fortunate than 20, who do.
In one year, 1 person in the village will die, but in the same year, 2 babies will be born, so that at the year's end the number of villagers will be 101.

First, because someone thought of you and sent you this message.
Second, because you are able to read.
Third, and most important, because you are alive.

So sing from the bottom of your heart,
dance with your body waving free,
and live, putting your soul into it.
And when you love,
love as though you have never been wounded,
even if you have.
And love the fact that you and others,
live here in this village.

Perhaps if enough of us learn to love our village,
it may yet be possible to save it from being torn apart.

English Translation: C. Douglas Lummis
Original Japanese: Ikeda, Kayoko

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今日清理電腦文件的時後找到日文版的「世界がもし１００人の村だったら」「如果世界是１００人的村落」的document. 有所感慨後在網上找了英文版post上blog. 本來想找中文版但找不到。有關介紹在<此>。

歴史/民族/平等/和平 ﹣如何取得平行？

2005-04-09T18:59:00.000-07:00

近日北京的抗日運動，真令人擔心。

歴史教育，民族主義，民心，到底應該怎樣做才能達到平行？

德國：歴史教育完善，永遠抱著一個不可遺忘的教育宗旨，民心卻抱著罪人的負擔。
日本：想擺脫歴史來個新開始，被各界責備要對中韓道歉，民心對這壓迫都累了。人民抱著「這都是過去政府的錯，為何要我們現代人來負荷？」的態度。

民族主義如果侵略到其他民族的人權，自由，存在等，在今時今日的世界簡直是一個負累。
民族主義如果是維護自己民族的人權，自由，存在等，在任何情況下也值得保留。
「民族主義」這概念是否應該來一次 re-definition 呢？

侵犯人權，自由，存在，其實在不同層面下每天都不斷在發生，只要有一方面的勢力比較大。
勢力的存在是無法擺脫。那麼了解和認識不就是最好解決的渠道嗎？
開始明白John Lennon/Ono Yoko 當年在床上的campaign，"make love, not war"的意義是什麼。
其實，男女之間的愛也存在著勢力鬥掙。如果男女之間能於愛而得到平行，同樣道理也能於其他制度下成立罷？
這是太理想的想法。

其實，16-18世紀在歐洲也不斷發生戰爭，侵略其他國家的事件，死傷及後患也不少。
到底什麼地方出錯了？

愚痴的白晝夢話
"Love is real, real is love ... Love is free, free is love, Love is living, living love, Love is needing to be loved"♪

peace

2005-04-08T04:33:00.000-07:00

(續duke的感想)
From: Japanese Society for History Textbook Reform Ch. 66
(link provided by 幽少)
盧溝橋的日中衝突

在現地的廣東軍(1)等的日本軍為了保護滿州和發展聯合集團經濟(2)，於不會干撓到蔣介石政黨的鄰近華北地帶建立親日政治份子，與中國的關係日漸緊張起來。同時，日本在北京四周安置了4000名佔領軍. 這是在(義和團)事件發生之後，與其他國家和中國所簽的條約是相同。1937.7.7晚，於北京郊外的盧溝橋上，有數名人士向演習中的日本軍發炮。翌日，日本軍和中國國民黨軍便進入了戰爭狀態（盧溝橋事件）。本來可以在當地解決事情，但續漸各方都動了大規模的軍事，中日戰爭便延續了８年。
同年８月，於外交勢力強的上海發生了兩名日本軍人被殺的事件。因這件事的原故引發了整個中日戰爭。日本軍認為如果能將首都南京擊敗蔣介石便會屈服, 於12月將南京占領（因為日本軍，當時的也有諸多平民死傷。南京事件）。可是蔣介石已把首都移定到重慶，抗戰持續。

- I've kept strictly to the original, please note the following:
*(1) - I believe this is the name of a troop
*(2) - English translation: bloc economy

(First of all, I apologize for my level of Chinese proficiency. Second, to speak honestly, I am not very familiar with historical facts and terms, especially when it is in the Chinese language, certain nuances may be incorrect. Please advise.)

有關〔靖國神社〕：靖國神社的歴史和日本傳統文化，在此一言難盡。有本新出的書可以介紹：
Ohnuki-Tierney, Emiko (姓，名）
書： Kamikaze, cherry blossoms, and nationalisms : the militarization of aesthetics in Japanese history
Chicago : University of Chicago Press, 2002.

廣島(HIroshima)的和平記念館和公園都到過，惟獨是靖國神社我一直未有勇氣去看看到底是怎樣。聽說裡面的柱全刻著士兵的名子，每日有和尚為他們念經。（注：神社是日本本土的宗教(神道 Shintoism)的地方，不是佛教）戰爭實在太可怕，雖然知道應該多閱讀多了解，但實在很悲哀，沒法深入研究。曾讀過戰後出版的長短篇小說，感受到各方的處境，好多時都會讀到發抖或哭泣。哎....

P E A C E

有無聽過一首歌, "Where is the Love" by Black Eyed Peas. 是當US話要打Iraq時一隊US rap樂隊作的歌。非常之有意思。歌詞

h.i.d.e

2005-04-05T22:14:00.000-07:00

最近在duke兄個blog上有個非常熱鬧的話題

由於visual rock（應該說是X, 後期改名為X Japan 中的yoshiki, 和hide）是我從前的「偶像」，goth/loli也是我的居住於日本當時的所屬圈子之一，我對話題十分關注。Yoshiki, hide到今已經成為了我「人生哲理」的一部份，由其是hide，他已是我生命的一部份。做人處事，音樂藝術，寫作表達，都是我萬分敬佩的一位藝術家。我更欣賞的是hide能將他的藝術活用於生命中。最近新寵的藝術家是 Pier Paolo Pasolini，超前衛的導演兼作家。

為何會那麼喜歡hide？ ---一言難盡
可能是因為他能將生存／死亡這枷鎖的存在意識化解為破解生存／束縛的理由與動力罷。簡單來說，他教了我什麼是自由罷。
認識hide當年1997，中學年代，愛讀哲學但總覺得跳不出框架。
1998.5.2 hide 去世。
對我來說，他是自殺死，雖然無人肯定到，更無人會希望他是自殺死。

他死忌那天再說「粉紅蜘蛛」的故事。

今日坐車回家時腦袋不斷在哼：hide 的"A Story" 雖然還未知道潛意識裡在想什麼。
壊れた時計が話しかけるよ、全ての物も人も目を閉じて、全て夢だと、目さめた時思いたいと。君も僕も古ぼけた言葉と、ホコリ、被った思いでにまみれ、ガラクタになって、前も後も何もない、肌に刺さる風は、すなを運んでゆく、目さめれば君も僕もただの塊になる
牆上壞了的時鐘講了個故事，「當人和物都閉上眼，他們再睜開眼睛時都會想這一切是夢。」
你我和我們之間的過期了的對話都會有天成為灰，被記憶沾上鮮血，變成廢物，再沒有過去和未來。
切膚的風將帶走塵埃，如能夠再睜眼，你我也只會成為土塊

Since the last little excerpts was not very poetic, here is a piece by yoshiki, another one of my favourites.

Excerpts from "Art of Life" by Yoshiki:
I believe in the madness called "now". / Past and future prison my heart. / Time is blind, but I wanna trace my love, / on the walls of time over pain in my heart. / Art of life. / Insane blade stabbing dreams. / Try to break all truth now. / But I can't heal this broken heart in pain. / Cannot start to live, / cannot end my life, / keep on crying.
...
I believe in the madness called "now". / Time goes flowing, breaking my heart. / Wanna live, can't let my heart kill myself. / Still, I haven't found what I'm looking for. / Art Of Life / I try and stop myself but my heart goes to destroy the truth. /Tell me why, I want the meaning of my life. / Do I try to live? / Do I try to love? / In my dream...
...
Dreams can make me mad. / I can't leave my dream, I can't stop myself / Don't know what I am, what lies are truth? / What truths are lies?

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好了，我真的要閉上眼睛了.... 又6am了

Language game (part I)

2005-04-02T20:12:00.000-08:00

Well, the idea of localizing foreign languages wouldn't be a surprise to the Cantonese speaking population, especially for those who grew up in HK.

Some examples:
bus - 巴士; cheese - 芝士; cookie - 曲奇
But why is "cheese cake" called "芝士蛋糕" and not something else?
Why is "fillo pastry" called "酥" and not "菲酪"?
But, "coffee" is "咖啡," "brown" is more commonly known as "咖啡色" or "啡色" rather than "褐色" or "棕色" in colloquial language.
How does the local culture decide what to name foreign imports? And how do people resonnate these foreign imports in their local lives?
What happens in post-97 when you may come across a person who does not understand what you mean by "菲林," "熱狗" or "威化餅"?

Some mysteries: (please post your guess in the comment; if you have something interesting, please post!!)
a. 江戶川亂步 (Japanese name for an American writer)
b. 福特主義 (Chinese name for an American practice; this is probably easy...)
c. devil's tongue (English name for the name of a food that probably started in Japan, Chinese (HK people) has started using them in 火鍋 in recent years.)
d. fortune cookie (a North-American 'Chinese' snack; does anyone know where this may have originated from? Is it pure American creation or does it actually have roots in "Chinese"?)

原來如此：Origins of April Fool's Day

2005-04-01T23:05:00.000-08:00

There are several explanations for the origin of April Fools' Day, but here is the most plausible one. April 1st was once New Year's Day in France. In 1582, Pope Gregory declared the adoption of his Gregorian calendar to replace the Julian calendar and New Year's Day was officially changed to January 1st. It took awhile for everyone in France to hear the news of this major change and others obstinately refused to accept the new calendar, so a lot of people continued to celebrate New Year's Day on the first of April – earning them the name April fools. The April fools were subjected to ridicule and practical jokes and the tradition was born. The butts of these pranks were first called poisson d'avril or April fish because a young naive fish is easily caught. A common practice was to hook a paper fish on the back of someone as a joke. This evolved over time and a custom of prank-playing continues on the first day of April

- taken from dictionary.com

２回冷汗＋１間嘆氣沖天的工作間

2005-03-31T18:25:00.000-08:00

The flood of work has come.

第一回冷汗：
由於時間的關係，昨日避著開車上學。我最忌趕時間的時候開車，因為我好自然會想和時間鬥快。平日我都會避免駛進別人的盲點，如我所料，差點被別人撞到。好險好險。

第二回冷汗：
在圖書館的手動compact shelves中差點被壓在中間。我有習慣取書時順便看看附近的書。當我陶醉於看書之時，突然間眼前的書架開始壓過來！我正在兩排書架的正中間，幅度只有兩尺，左右各需跑十步才能逃出生天。書架開始壓過來時我已經叫了聲「有人在啊∼∼∼！！」但那人並沒有聽到，書架繼續壓過來.... （決定了，快跑！）跳出來時書架間的幅度少於一尺.... 好險好險... 不然要做人餅了。跳出來時那位教授都嚇了一跳，連忙道歉一番。大家就在那裡笑了一場。

如我所料，我借的書都會比預期的多最少一倍。捧著書回工作室時已經是5, 6點 - 大家下課／下班的時候。

嘆氣沖天的工作間：
經過圖書館的一番刺激，人開朗些。我的work station在一間大工作室內的一個subdivision. 學期尾避近，大家都忙改卷，改論文，還要應付自己的功課（哎，一天看幾十份同樣的解答真的不好玩）。工作室內不斷有人歎氣（包括我自己），簡直是歎氣的大合奏。

過了一陣，我開始享受大家一起在〔努力〕的嘆氣。（笑）

the truth of S/M

2005-03-27T22:31:00.000-08:00

最近在閱讀一些Marquis de Sade的文學評論。Marquis de Sade (1740-1814)可以說是現代S/M的根源。S/M的真正概念至今已被歪曲及缺乏真正的了解，其實S/M的原意是挑戰"神 - GOD"的function，以及社會的權力。於Sade有生之年，這概念是十分前衛。

Michel Foucault 在1970年才創出"The History of Sexuality"這本書，主要論述社會的控制力如可由「社會」這機構轉移到「個人」身上，透過控制「個人」的身體，性別等來作全面的控制和統一化。簡單的例子：家庭是由一男一女組成，同性就被邈視或'demonize.'

試想Sade當年寫"The 120 Days of Sodom"及其他作品，怎會不被當作瘋子及性變態？
（120 Days 是描寫４位有錢有勢力的成年人，各捉了一班年輕男女作30天的性虐待。）當然，虐待的描寫十分重，那正是用來反映社會／"神"對人的虐待：
"Everything has to be wicked, barbarous, inhuman - as your God is - and these are the vices which must be adopted if one wishes to plaese him; not that there is much hope of succeeding, since that evil which always does harm, the evil which is God's essence, could not possibly be susceptible either to love or gratitude. If this God who is the center of evil and ferocity torments man, and his Nature and other men torment him throughout his existence, what reason is there to doubt that he accts in the same way, and perhaps even involuntarily, on this wisp which survives after man and which ... is nothing other than evil?....once I become aware of this, evil becomes good for me as it is for the being who has created me in his dealings with me, and I am pleased by the evil I do others as God is pleased by the evil he has done to me. ... pleasure through comparison, a pleasure which can only be born from the sight of the unhappy, .. wherever men are equal and where differences do not exist, happiness will never exist; it's quite like the situation of the man who doesn't appreciate the price of good health until he has been ill." (Sade quoted in Klossowski)
- 簡短來說，神創造要經過生老病死的人，那麼神不是最可惡(Sadist)的嗎？Sade的邏輯其實很簡單。

有關的經典文學評論家：
Simone de Beauvior & Pierre Klossowski
Maurice Blanchot
Roland Barthes

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以上純粹是客觀的論述，希望不會被封網........

TW and PRC Controversy :: 台獨爭論

2005-03-26T16:40:00.001-08:00

- extracted from Swiss info (3/27/2005)
"I am here to protest against a barbaric China which looks down upon the Taiwanese people," said 70-year-old businessman Fan Wen-yi, adding he was not affiliated to any political party and had never participated in a protest before. "The anti-secession law, simply put, is a law that authorises war."

- "Back China plans to outlaw Taiwan independence, leaders tell Rice" Times Online (3/21/2005)

﹣「温家宝总理答中外记者问要点回顾」新浪新聞（3/14/2005）

- "Secession law aims at peace, China says" International Herald Tribune (3/15/2005)

=== COMMENTS ===
Out of the many English newspaper I have read on this topic, only ONE press has picked up or bothered to quote what Wen Jiabao said in the press interview on 3/14 regarding the secession law. The bias of coverage since 3/14 stirred international conflicts, and further escalated negative presumptions of "THE communist PRC" amongst individuals. Use of words in titles ("Back China"), quotes from protesters ("barbaric China"), reveal the power of media that proliferates biased connotations of the Law among general public.

For those who care about the this matter, here is a site that has a vast pool of English coverage. Knowledge and 'independent thinking' is the key to freedom of the mind and sight.

Brief history of Coffee in Japan

2005-03-26T01:54:00.000-08:00

1609 - Coffee was brought into Japan by the Dutch when a trade company was established
1804 - the first written account of a Japanese drinking coffee
1826 - popular myth that coffee is a medicine for longevity
1858 - free trade began, official import of coffee began
1869 - first printed advertisement of coffee in Yokohama
1878 - first attempt to cultivate plants that yield coffee beans
1888 - first class European cafe "可否茶館 (Kahi Chakan)" opened in Tokyo (closed in 4 years)
1910 - first "不二家洋菓子店 (Fujiya Western Sweets Shop)" opened in Yokohama
1930 - 7000 cafes in Tokyo; 17,000 waitresses hired
1934 - import of Columbia coffee beans; operating cafes across the nation were close to 30,000 stores
1936 - first import of Blue Mountain coffee beans via import route from London, UK
1938 - import of all goods became restricted due to WWII, coffee import halved
1942 - coffee import zeroed
1945 - coffee became a luxurious consumer product due to low availability within Japan
1950 - coffee import resumed after 8 years of interruption; import were heavily taxed
1953 - first import of Blue Mountain coffee in post-war Japan; cost was very high due to unusual climate in Brazil
1956 - first import of instant coffee; first Japan-made espresso machine
1960 - free trade of coffee beans; first production of instant coffee in Japan
1961 - free trade of instant coffee
1963 - establishment of a coffee association in Japan
1967 - first instant coffee produced by the freeze dry method
1971 - consumption of instant coffee reached 12,000 tons in Japan
1974 - distinction between coffee produced in Japan and those of export
1980 - the coffee association became a corporation
1983 - October 1 is established as the nation's "Coffee Day"

History of Japanese Curry

2005-03-25T18:03:00.000-08:00

1869 - Curry arrived in Japan with the British through the port of Yokohama
1872 - Buddhism has banned and denounced eating meat, especially beef until this year. In 1872, eating beef was considered a sign of 'modernity' and curry became the popular way to eat meat. Other than using beef in curry, chicken, shrimp, clam, cod fish were popular ingredients.
1877 - 凮月堂(Fuugetsudou) started the chain of 'high end Western cuisine,' including curry rice. These dishes were sold at 8cents per serving; compared to soba which costs 1cent)
1887 - there are doubts that Curry were cooked at home up to this year.
1903 - Sino War period - canned curry beef and pork were part of soldier's meals.
1898 - price of curry meal dropped to 5-7cents per dish
1906 - curry pastes became available on retail market
1932 - curry became one of the set menus in common cafeterias; coffee is also readily available and a set meal of curry and coffee together costs 20cents.
1940 - inflation - curry costs 20-30cents
1941 - during WWII - curry production stopped for the retail market but was available to the soldiers
1946 - production of curry resumed; because of shortage of supply, curry only comes in powder form
1950 - curry became a popular instant food
1960s - curry became 'domesticated' - sweet curry became available
1969 - instant food culture became the trend in Japan
1970s - curry consumption grew rapidly

=== Domestication Process ===
1870s - flour was used in curry paste
1880s - flour was removed from curry paste; onions were replaced by Japanese long green onion.
1890s - onions were back as one of the popular ingredients, including other western ingredients such as milk
1960s - curry is domesticated as "Japanese" - popularisation of 'sweet curry' which used to be only for young childern

sources:
http://www.housefoods.co.jp/openhouse/museum/rekishi.htm
http://www.currymuseum.com/

t i m e - is just another creation

2005-03-25T10:42:00.000-08:00

- Bensern Tunick